November 30, 2011

//16: Things.

I should limit myself from going to shows. Foster the People would be my last (or maybe Najwa's DFP? Or Dashboard Confessional? I don't know man. Old/Bad habit die hard eh?). Gotta focus on stuff that deserve money more.
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"I'm proud of you". Four little words that you would have me deny my whole existence. I want my mom to say it. But my mom, is a faint 9 years old memory.
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Maybe that's what this is. I don't know what I'm doing, and I crave recognition. Not just anybody's but my mom's. But my mom is gone.
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I just miss her, okay?
Maybe when I fall sick, or my heart feels like breaking for no apparent reason, all I want to hear is my mom's voice and nothing more. Running did ease it a little bit, but I still feel like crap today.

I don't even know why.



Al-fatihah.

November 28, 2011

//15

Christina Perri's Arms Cover by dy.ali
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At times I feel like disappearing. Delete all my online footprints and whatnot. Every single thing. But then I remembered how alone it would be.

//14

Penang was awesome. I love Penang, I love sharing the same oxygen with its awesome people. And the beaches. And when the whole island lit up, oh my god. It was so beautiful I wish I could keep it in a jar or something.
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Feeling a bit, meh lately. Maybe due to the workload. Maybe, I don't know. I should start running again, I miss running. And, I just realized something. I was that good of a person during that particular time, I was. And I didn't deserve any of it. I love wholeheartedly and that's that. I shouldn't feel guilty/down/whatever yeah? Life moves on. I should too.
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My little boyfriend. Who, loves me unconditionally when I have food at hand.

November 25, 2011

//13: My pocket-sized storyteller.

I had one crazy night last week. Everything was not in order and I had no proper plan at all. But I know I have to see my little storyteller, I have to - I decided to just, Go. The last time she was in town (March,2010) I was gluing myself up and though I love her music so much, that night was horrible for me. My heart wasn't at the right place.

I had my Vox back then. I wrote so much, so much so that it kinda hurts to look back.

But, this time around, I feel her through Concrete Wall, I sang along happily to Just You and Me. It shows kan? How a year can do to you? Like how this time around, I carry my heart with me, and my head too and it was nice... enjoying her chill music all night. I haven't done that in a while, what's more it was with people who appreciates.
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It is not just a show. That show is kinda a milestone for me, and I thank you Zee, for making it happen. Zee Avi was perfect that night, she was fun, quirky, appreciative and her songs were mesmerizing. I love how she puts her heart into it (...and how cute her double bass player too ;) ). Love was in the air from where I was standing, though things are so much different now, I am okay with being surrounded by things like that.

I was happy. I am, happy. :)
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Tok kelak akan pergi, sik lamak lagik
- Storyteller, 2011.

//12

November 24, 2011

//11

You know what sucks?

Having something so special to you being yanked away from you. Then you tried so hard to heal, then it came back. You got comfortable, and it went away again. This time for good.

Like earlier this semester, L told me about her project titled was already taken by one of my group mates. I remember how hard L had to scour the online/physical library and work her noodles up to come up with a new one. A few days back, that guy who took her project title dropped that friggin subject, what the hell really. And now L stuck with something that she's not sure of to begin with.

And, a friend. Lost someone. That someone came back, they were happy yadayadayada. Then, BAM! Byebye. I don't get life sometimes. But then again, who does anyways?

I'm both happy and sad. For this kind of things y'know?
I'm glad I lost things for good that I don't have to think twice to keep or to stash em later.

Work is still a lot.
Bye.

//10

You know what I want right now?

I just want to explode, and disappear into thin air so that my workload can't find me.
I'll update about the lovely Zee Avi in a few days. Till then, wish me luck on my truckloads of assignments and tests and meetings and aaaaaaaaaaaaak.

Bye.

November 20, 2011

//9


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Falling in love with this, all over again.
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And, bashing people on twitter without mentioning them, is just the same as mengutuk belakang belakang. Yes, this included. I just don't like too much negativities roam my timeline. :(, wish you would be happy soon.

November 17, 2011

//8: Island of the Honest Man


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Education is a luxury. It's a privilege.
I got it.
So I can't complain. Can't complain D. Work your ass off, give your best.

November 15, 2011

//7




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Totally not my photos.  I miss having a good run, that sweaty adrenaline rush feeling after a good run. Now I'm just, lazy and TBH, I don't have time for myself anymore. Few more weeks to go to the final week and I am scared. Workload are piling up and I've come to a point of just, letting them rot to death.

On the plus side, I can sleep 8 hours tonight. Whew.

//6: Muse.

Upon finding about their album (accidentally, I decided to randomly download FTP's Torches) while speed walking to class, all I can hear was this euphoric combination of quirky sounds. Might not be too hipster/indie for your likings whatsoever, Foster the People's Torches is THE album for me, y'know? At least for 2011.

They helped me combat my social anxiety, in all seriousness. I feel like a bad ass when I have them on loop. And they are coming down here. They. are. coming. Like, wha?

I danced to them a lot. At least in my head. I danced to them quietly on them long train rides. I danced to them in my room. I danced to them during lectures.

I am just. Excited beyond. BEYOND excited. Not being coherent here, but this is what good music do to me.

I'll be waiting to dance to your music on January guys. :')

November 14, 2011

//5: Mantra

I love my life. I can ace my tests. I'll see Avi's this Thursday. My projects are going well./I love my life. I can ace my tests. I'll see Avi's this Thursday. My projects are going well./I love my life. I can ace my tests. I'll see Avi's this Thursday. My projects are going well./I love my life. I can ace my tests. I'll see Avi's this Thursday. My projects are going well./I love my life. I can ace my tests. I'll see Avi's this Thursday. My projects are going well./I love my life. I can ace my tests. I'll see Avi's this Thursday. My projects are going well./I love my life. I can ace my tests. I'll see Avi's this Thursday. My projects are going well./I love my life. I can ace my tests. I'll see Avi's this Thursday. My projects are going well./I love my life. I can ace my tests. I'll see Avi's this Thursday. My projects are going well./I love my life. I can ace my tests. I'll see Avi's this Thursday. My projects are going well./I love my life. I can ace my tests. I'll see Avi's this Thursday. My projects are going well./I love my life. I can ace my tests. I'll see Avi's this Thursday. My projects are going well./I love my life. I can ace my tests. I'll see Avi's this Thursday. My projects are going well./I love my life. I can ace my tests. I'll see Avi's this Thursday. My projects are going well./I love my life. I can ace my tests. I'll see Avi's this Thursday. My projects are going well./TRUTH/TRUST.

November 13, 2011

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(source: @halimisaidi)
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Dear favorite girl,
I am super proud of you, making it big out there. You inspire a lot of people with your diligence and your God-gifted talent. Stay golden!

Lots of love! x

And, Najwa.
You are just, sighs. Amazing voice. Amazing music. See you May 2012!

*HugAttack*

//4

(via bearforartemis)

Sometimes I feel like I'm meant to live for days like today. Today went perfect, just the way I like it. I got lost in the middle of nowhere for 2 hours, filled with venting outs, nervousness, butterflies of thinking that I might not find my way back, but I did it. I did it with the help of awesome laughter sessions and awesome sing-along worthy music, and of course, because of my awesome Creator. Sigh :')

Today was fun. And funny, too.
Got to see familiar faces (and familiar places), I miss Shah Alam to be honest. Miss that place A LOT. There's no other place that offers you a range of mamak stalls. I miss my late night mamak session too :(, well life is always moving, so I guess I have to buck up and move too, right? Putrajaya's not a bad place at all actually, but yeah you know.. everything is just sooooo. Far.

Above all, I love driving around. So much love. I don't think I'll ever get tired of it. Long drives are my favorite thing to do oh and plus point if there is good music around (and that I can sing along to hihi)

November 12, 2011

//3

(via bookwurm)
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I mean look at that... that.
*Off daydreaming about having actual life with Zano.*

November 9, 2011

//2


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Play me a song, your newest one.

November 8, 2011

November 4, 2011

Garisan Penamat.

There will always be a new race. I think I partially won, the one before this.
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Now, new things, be kind.

November 2, 2011

Elle.

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Sigh, can I have your face and your talent please?

November 1, 2011

Chocolate, Rain.

I'm loving this gloomy (but super cozy) weather. It has been raining every night for weeks now, and its nice, y'know... having the hottest place on Malaysia map drenched in super cozy, mellow-ish rain. So much love.
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I'm writing just because of the date! Heh heh heh. Liking the first day already, I'm sensing November would be my month, too :-3
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Would be on my break in a couple of days and i could not wait to get my movie/sushi/subway fix!
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This month's to-do, Bismillahirahmanirahim:
  • Complete my interim report
  • Make that TTP project happen!
  • (..and my personal video project, too)
  • Ace my Viva Voce (inshaAllah)
  • Zee Avi's Homecoming
  • Catch up on cardio sesh' + explore Putrajaya at night.
  • Learn plucking on darling GL-1 (..and give her a name, too! aiyaiyai)
  • Frees up laptop space and start installing important software
  • Finish up at least the second season of CM.
  • Be a good daughter, at least for a week.
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Yikes, this turns out boring. Better get back to my papers!