September 14, 2012
Yes, William effin' Beckett wished me a few days earlier before my birthday and I received one extra prints from my favorite drummer, The Butcher. A personal message from Mr. Beckett will be waiting for me in a few weeks' time (because I have such an awesome friend to help me with this ♥)
I turned 25 on Monday. I'll be working soon, like soon next week kind of soon. I've been living alone for a week since Monday which I havent been doing in years, and it sucks, so far. Which I'm coming to a conclusion that I cannot live alone. Ever. (Which is why, I need to work hard and get me and bros a place to live in peace)
It's not that I got depressed, it's just that everything seems to be... stagnant and slooooow. I hope things get better next week, inshaAllah. c:
This year birthday/birthweek wasn't as eventful as last year's but ohmygod did you see what did I get for this year? William Beckett & The Butcher. gsfdgfhjdgas. My 18 years old self would tell me to get the hell off because THIS won't happen, not in a million years, but it happened. So BOOYAH 18 y/o self! :P
I got to see Evie one last time too, that precious little kid. Easily my favorite kid on earth ♥
Y'know what, I thought I'd come up with uber cool, deep and meaningful post because hey I'm 25 now. But guess what I can't hahahaha, well I guess age is just a number after all. I'll take on my world soon, and I will rock it. As hard as I can. *Yay for optimism!*
So this will do for now.
I befriend so much people (in and out of Malaysia, in fact) for the past 3 months, thanks for the unemployment, social network and Beckett.
September 4, 2012
That's not the point, the picture I mean. I'm not going to talk about how "fall apart" I was but this. I most probably will end my status as an unemployed graduate status soon, which is great. I mean, i've searched high and low for this and I got it anddd y'know I'm supposed to be looking forward to it right? I am. I was. I think?
People painted this career life or path being an adult like it is such a bad news that you could not get out off, I mean that's effing scary sia. I know it's normal to feel all the jitters and being all nervous and shit but ohmygod have you check the time this entry is posted? 10 freaking AM. I don't do 10 AM no sir, 10 AM for me is a William-Beckett-o'clock in my town and everywhere else in WB fandom. Yes, I got sucked into the fandom/bandom yet again but that's not the point.
Oh God, I'm not even sure what I'm trying to say to you. I guess, I'm afraid that I'd be that boring old adult in the corner and sulk at how life is, y'know? I mean I REFUSE to be boring. I REFUSE to stop whatever this is. But on the other hand, maybe this is what it is? It is meant to be. I am meant to end up boring and wrinkly and responsibilities are my best friend. sagfdhasfdga THIS JUST GOT REAL MAN.
Excuse me for exuding a sense of wimpiness but I am scared shitless. I have to start doing my SAP reading up again and ohmygod sdfghjkl. Yeah wait, I can't use that kind of language with you because you don't understand fangirl talk. So-ory.
But then again I've been unemployed for months! I'm SO spent on doing precisely nothing and being unproductive, I wanna try something else. But this "something else" is permanent. You know how effing scary that sound? You're gonna "try" something that will go on, for at least 30 years. 30 frikkin years man. And at the end, at the end of 30 years I'd be this boring makcik who'd make nasi lemak for living (I dont know. Maybe? But I wanna have my own restaurant by then i DONT KNOW), oh gosh now these thoughts are making my tummy upset.
That's my update on life. On the other note, I'm so gonna miss everyone. I'm not exaggerating one bit.