Positive Thoughts #1.

I am a music nerd.
I like to be in control. I am in control.
I am a dreamer. I dream big.

I am in for something big, inshaAllah.

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Dulu aku ada dinding,
Tinggi melangit,
Lebih keras dari konkrit.


Tapi,
Satu hari, dinding aku berlubang,
sikit sikit aku biar,
jadi ia runtuh.


Aku jadi gelisah.


Aku bina balik sikit sikit,
Lebih keras dari yang dulu,
Lebih tahan lasak dari yang dulu,


Tapi,
Satu hari aku leka,
Sikit sikit dinding aku terbiar,
Rosak juga rasanya.


Tapi,
Satu hari aku sedar,
Yang aku perlu teruskan bina dinding yang itu,
Makin lama aku leka,
Makin lama aku biar,
Aku jadi tak siuman,
Aku jadi sakit tak tentu hala.


Jadi,
Mulai hari ni,
misi aku untuk siapkan projek dinding yang terbengkalai,
Biar kali ini,
Cuma yang mampu runtuhkan,
Rosakkan,
Dan hilangkan,


Hanya yang mampu.


Jadi,
Jangan tanya kalau aku sibuk membina,
Tak hiraukan apa,
Tak kira siapa,
Tak tentu masa,
Terlalu banyak sebabnya.
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Isya'
Final study week, 
Tronoh.

Chocolate, Rain.

I'm loving this gloomy (but super cozy) weather. It has been raining every night for weeks now, and its nice, y'know... having the hottest place on Malaysia map drenched in super cozy, mellow-ish rain. So much love.
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I'm writing just because of the date! Heh heh heh. Liking the first day already, I'm sensing November would be my month, too :-3
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Would be on my break in a couple of days and i could not wait to get my movie/sushi/subway fix!
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This month's to-do, Bismillahirahmanirahim:

• Complete my interim report
• Make that TTP project happen!
• (..and my personal video project, too)
• Ace my Viva Voce (inshaAllah)
• Zee Avi's Homecoming
• Catch up on cardio sesh' + explore Putrajaya at night.
• Learn plucking on darling GL-1 (..and give her a name, too! aiyaiyai)
• Frees up laptop space and start installing important software
• Finish up at least the second season of CM.
• Be a good daughter, at least for a week.

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Yikes, this turns out boring. Better get back to my papers!

Yay yay yay

WEH DAH SEPTEMBERRRRRRR WOOOOOHOOOOOO SIKIIIIIIT JA LAGI! CHAIYOK CHAIYOK D! :D

Kalau

Been given a chance what song I want to a proper cover of, I'd choose one of The XX's, Heart Skipped A Beat. Sebab saja, aku rasa composition dia macam simple, tapi cukup cepat buat aku bob my head. Jarang jumpa lagu macamtu dah sekarang.

Tapi tu kalau lah, sebab aku tak reti main anything other than uke. Itu pun berterabur. Agak geram sebab a few days back dah plan nak do a cover of this one song yang dari haritu ada dalam kepala. Bila try main macam haramnya bunyii :(. Jujur aku rindu freestyling dengan adik aku dekat living room, berangan. Hahah. I miss you guys, I miss the white guitar too weh. Bila boleh jam sesama lagi ni?

Yang sorang tu dah nak pergi Kuantan esok. Esok. Jatuh gak kau kat tempat kakak kan? Hahah. Lawak gila. Fikir2 balik macam sangat random. I hope warga Kuantan jaga S elok elok. Sebab dia panas baran. Nasib ar korang mess with my brother memang mess with the wrong person.
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Bila dah step outside the box, I can see a picture being painted, one by one jigsaw puzzle fits. :) Alhamdulillah, tak sia-sia sakit aku dulu. Kalau aku tak sakit dulu tak rasa sihat sikit sekarang :).
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Semalam aku jumpa website aku yang lama. Dem. Seriously kau ni memang gila ah. Gila. Alhamdulillah jugak sebab aku dah outgrew aku yang dulu e he he. :-) Aku ingat dulu aku ada write a post saying what we were 6 months ago are not what we are now. So siapa aku Januari lepas bukan aku yang sekarang, which is so effing true in every possible way.

July, be full of hope. Great ones!

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I feel more at night than I do at day. Have you ever felt that way?

Kadang-kadang aku rasa Allah ciptakan malam untuk kita nurse diri kita, yang kadang-kadang masa siang kita ni tak ada langsung nak fikir pasal apa yang kita dah buat, apa kita rasa, apa kita dah accomplish.

Aku rasa waktu malam adalah masa yang paling magical dalam sehari. Sebab bila malam, I feel close towards everything, towards myself, towards my family, towards my Creator. Dan masa malam jugak lah aku akan rasa benda-benda yang kadang-kadang crappy, tapi aku kena rasa. That what makes me human. What makes us human.

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Sekarang dah bulan Oktober, aku dah janji dengan diri yang bulan ini will be the best out of the best October I've ever lived. Saja. I feel like I need to accomplish more, and feel less. Tolak tepi benda-benda yang tak sepatutnya and be content with what I have and will have.

Aku pernah baca somewhere yang setiap inci tubuh kita sentiasa berubah in the past 6 months. Siapa aku pada April lepas bukan aku yang sekarang. I'm renewed.

These changes, better be worth it.

Dudes and dudettes, it's effin July already? Whoah.

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I feel like we're only getting to April, twentyten you move too fast, slowwww down!

Y'know, I felt like I was having a mild heart attack when I saw today's date. I'm so lost in counting dates nowadays up to a point it's kinda creepy. Like, hello, 7 months already? What have I done during those 7 months ~ I didn't feel like I've completed my first year at all, in fact, I feel like I'm just starting uni and still learning faces.

I have this ~ "A year ago..." ~ reminisce moments going on whenever it reaches the first of the month, and surprisingly I reflect a lot on 2009 now. How my life changed so much from last year, yet I didn't feel like I'm living the twentyten yet, not even a bit.

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Holy guacamole!