Turning into the dark side, muahahahaha!
As of this moment, I'm having a momentarily coder's block (if that exists), intense urge to procrastinate every. single. second - this counts and throw away all my projects outside my window.
Truth is, I'm not ready to see you. I mean, hypothetically, I am not. Though I haven't talked to you in a while and we had something (albeit, not much), after the break up, I don't think I will ever be ready to see you. To see you crosses the street with your fiance, walking hand in hand with a happy smile on your face.
Don't get me wrong, if given the chance to have it all again with you - I don't want it. I don't want to miss you, I don't want to love you - and I haven't been doing all that in a very long while, which is good. But I still think I cannot ever be ready for that day.
We are two (too) different entities. Always have been. It just feels ...lonely at times. But I have so many people that love me more than you did, right now. You should always (always) remember that, dalila.
I love it when you curl, You curl right under, better, fitter, Unlike the previous days, Days when you were younger. / I love it when you smile, Your smile looks Like it fits you now, it fits you so much better, Like you could walk around, With a bare face and wear that smile. / I love it when you sit, You sit tall and pretty, That everything feels right to be beside you. / I love it when I line that skin of yours, It bounces back the softest touch, I could ever imagine, That this is it, This is all of me.
Kalaulah tiap kali aku tekan button post lepastu publish aku generate RM50. Dah kaya gila woi aku!
Dari semalam tak tidur, aku dah lama tak pull all nighter macam ni, zaman diploma dah datang makin dekat, stress buat system dah makin bertimbun. Adui. Dahlah kali ni aku pakai language yang aku tak pernah guna pun, budget hebat ah, nak guna php memang dah flat out tak ingat. Huhuhu. Asal la system aku ni dari elok jadi one user terus jadi multiple user. Elok sangat ah tu dalila.
Kan best kalau aku post je ada orang nak borak reply sekali hohoho. Stress tau dak?
Makin nak habis makin malas makin tak produktif makin tekanan makin blur makin buntu makin fikir macam macam aku nak kerja apa kat mana gaji berapa ada ke orang nak ambik aku kerja duit nak habis dah ni scholar takkan masuk lagi apa benda kau ni pemalas betul fyp satu jadah tak gerak test tadi suka hati mak bapak je borak borak.
Tadi Test 1of my only minor subject this sem. First time masuk kelas finance tak rasa berapa inspired. Don't get me wrong, the lecturer is aiight, entahlah cuma tak macam kelas kelas dulu kot? Kelas Econs best lah tapi, sebab Dr. L ajar hihu.
So tadi test aku duduk row belakang, best gak duduk belakang belakang ni, macam macam cara budak budak ni nak meniru (termasuk yours truly), creative. And fun. Aku asyik nak senyum je, sebab nak gelak tak boleh. lol.
WOI STRESS GILAAAAAAAAAA.