Truth is, I'm not ready to see you. I mean, hypothetically, I am not. Though I haven't talked to you in a while and we had something (albeit, not much), after the break up, I don't think I will ever be ready to see you. To see you crosses the street with your fiance, walking hand in hand with a happy smile on your face.
Don't get me wrong, if given the chance to have it all again with you - I don't want it. I don't want to miss you, I don't want to love you - and I haven't been doing all that in a very long while, which is good. But I still think I cannot ever be ready for that day.
We are two (too) different entities. Always have been. It just feels ...lonely at times. But I have so many people that love me more than you did, right now. You should always (always) remember that, dalila.