//88: 3am thoughts and whatnots

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"We used to look at the stars and confessed our dreams"
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I know I haven't been writing in awhile. I don't know man, I don't know what to talk about. SO much things happen lately, like so freaking much I can't handle it. I really can't. I kinda miss being so very optimistic on stuff and now all I do all day is waiting for a phone call that would change my life.

Aaaah depressed nya bunyi! But really though.
Life has been different, Tak tahu nak suka atau tak. More towards indifferent kot. Entah. Entah. Itu je aku boleh cakap hohohihu.

Sebenarnya macam macam aku nak buat cuma tak jumpa drive tu je lagi, omg alasan je kan kau D? selalu nak alasan jeee eeee. (Eh tak, mana ada alasan betul apa. *k abaikan monologue ini*).

I miss having my late night driving sesh. I miss shiny lights, the noisy mapleys and stable internet connection. I am, officially a gadis kampung now (In a way lah. Tsk)

Honestly though, I cannot wait to move out. Bila? I'm not sure. Tapi by the end of this year I NEED to move out. I can't this place. It's not me. Or maybe sebab aku memang tak boleh berada dalam close proximity with certain people and the lack of social interactions. Betul dowh, hari hari aku mengadap muka adik aku je. Kalau nak hang out dengan kawan kawan, siapa lagi lah yang seremaja aku ni? (Unless budak jungle, but diorang sibuk nak exams and final year projects and living life). And have I told you I live at least 50 minutes away from the city? This city girl cries.

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Aku rasa sangat bersyukurlah sekarang ni dah bulan puasa. At least malam malam jumpa la jugak orang lain ye dak? Huhu.

Bye.

// 67

The adorablest.

//38

Malbec - Swimming for Tomorrow.
One of my boyfriends doing his thing. (Y)
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Have you guys watched Relationship Status yet? A local flick directed by Khairil M. Bahar which tells about how the relationships made in the 21st century - obviously assimilates the social networks we have now, and at first I thought it would be solely on the relationship status bar on thee facebook but I was wrong.

The lines/scenes that got me were (something along the line lah ek, can't find the exact words)

It's different because, when I cheated on you, only three person know about it. Me, that dude and you. But you promote your infidelity publicly, and I have to find out from other people, and to be the last person to know? It's humiliating.

What's the point? I was getting better, whether you realize it or not, I was getting better!

...and it didn't occur to you that I might eventually see her again, digitally even? (on finding his ex on facebook and she had the nerves to friend requested him? Sigh.)

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Not so much of a twist but suffice to say I've been through some of the scenes and it sucks. I cried like a million times over. Sigh.

But it's a good movie to watch, relatable, only available in TGV cinemas, and I think it's a limited release... so hurry!

Made by Malaysian

I saw few familiar faces, and my awesome lecturer hall wall. :')
Mat Luthfi, you have an amazing soul.



I love living in Malaysia knowing we have people like this and a lot more. Alhamdulillah.

Happy Independence Day, Malaysia :)
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Oh, dan Selamat Hari Raya jugak! Minta maaf dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki, yang nampak atau tak, yang sekarang atau dulu. Mintak maaf banyak banyak, harap harap dapat maafkan.. mana la tau esok lusa aku kene panggil mengadap Big Boss up there hu hu hu. :) Thanks.
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Raya and Merdeka sekali gus, orang lain sibuk cuti aku sibuk kerja nak buat duit untuk si GL-1 tersayang.

Bye!