//41

-- Daily? Pfft.
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Today's my second day of school, (which also marks my first day of class for the last semester, writing that out just made me shat my pants), yesterday was tres awesome because of reasons. Heeheehee. I get that butterflies in your stomach feelings almost twice and they were awesome to say the least.

Nothing much to update, other than this - I'm effing nervous for this semester and I really hope I won't messed it up.
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Good things, just stay. Or be better, your pick.

//4

(via bearforartemis)

Sometimes I feel like I'm meant to live for days like today. Today went perfect, just the way I like it. I got lost in the middle of nowhere for 2 hours, filled with venting outs, nervousness, butterflies of thinking that I might not find my way back, but I did it. I did it with the help of awesome laughter sessions and awesome sing-along worthy music, and of course, because of my awesome Creator. Sigh :')

Today was fun. And funny, too.
Got to see familiar faces (and familiar places), I miss Shah Alam to be honest. Miss that place A LOT. There's no other place that offers you a range of mamak stalls. I miss my late night mamak session too :(, well life is always moving, so I guess I have to buck up and move too, right? Putrajaya's not a bad place at all actually, but yeah you know.. everything is just sooooo. Far.

Above all, I love driving around. So much love. I don't think I'll ever get tired of it. Long drives are my favorite thing to do oh and plus point if there is good music around (and that I can sing along to hihi)

Chocolate, Rain.

I'm loving this gloomy (but super cozy) weather. It has been raining every night for weeks now, and its nice, y'know... having the hottest place on Malaysia map drenched in super cozy, mellow-ish rain. So much love.
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I'm writing just because of the date! Heh heh heh. Liking the first day already, I'm sensing November would be my month, too :-3
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Would be on my break in a couple of days and i could not wait to get my movie/sushi/subway fix!
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This month's to-do, Bismillahirahmanirahim:

• Complete my interim report
• Make that TTP project happen!
• (..and my personal video project, too)
• Ace my Viva Voce (inshaAllah)
• Zee Avi's Homecoming
• Catch up on cardio sesh' + explore Putrajaya at night.
• Learn plucking on darling GL-1 (..and give her a name, too! aiyaiyai)
• Frees up laptop space and start installing important software
• Finish up at least the second season of CM.
• Be a good daughter, at least for a week.

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Yikes, this turns out boring. Better get back to my papers!

Made by Malaysian

I saw few familiar faces, and my awesome lecturer hall wall. :')
Mat Luthfi, you have an amazing soul.



I love living in Malaysia knowing we have people like this and a lot more. Alhamdulillah.

Happy Independence Day, Malaysia :)
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Oh, dan Selamat Hari Raya jugak! Minta maaf dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki, yang nampak atau tak, yang sekarang atau dulu. Mintak maaf banyak banyak, harap harap dapat maafkan.. mana la tau esok lusa aku kene panggil mengadap Big Boss up there hu hu hu. :) Thanks.
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Raya and Merdeka sekali gus, orang lain sibuk cuti aku sibuk kerja nak buat duit untuk si GL-1 tersayang.

Bye!

Agaknya kalau akulah yang on that plane and akulah yang nak menuju sana buat umrah, mungkin sampai sampai je depan kaabah nanti, akulah orang yang mula mula akan menangis dari awal sampai habis. Mungkin sepanjang perjalanan tu aku akan sebak je. Sebab aku tengah imagine ni. Seronoknya orang yang dapat pegi sana, dapat direct line berhubung terus, dah lah bulan puasa sekarang ni. I cannot wait for my turn. I hope aku dapat tunaikan yang kelima tu before aku mati. I hope aku dapat buat sehabis baik.

Agaknya kalau aku berbumbung sendiri, tak rasa macam ni nikmat hidup. Sikit sikit nak complaint, sikit sikit nak salahkan parents. Agaknya tak dapat merasa hidup macam ni. Sekarang benda ni semua tengah tolong aku jadi orang. Kalau aku duduk sebumbung Abah mungkin aku takkan nampak the reality of life. That people won't actually give a shit no matter how helpless you are. Agaknya kalau people actually give a shit, aku tak merasa nak appreciate apa dan siapa yang ada dengan aku sentiasa.

Agaknya, kalau ibu ada lagi, mungkin aku akan jadi budak paling pemalas, degil, ungrateful, whiny bitch. Kalau ibu ada lagi mungkin akulah yang itu. Mungkin aku takkan reti buat benda benda ni semua, sebab ibu sayang aku, ibu sayang kami, kalau boleh angkat pinggan pun dia tak bagi anak dia buat.

Agaknya, kalau aku still ada yang itu, aku takkan pandang yang Ini.
Aku takkan mengadu yang dekat Situ.
Aku takkan teresak, lepastu tahan.


Agaknya, kalau aku selemah yang aku sangka. Mungkin aku dah buat kerja bodoh, macam tulis surat ala ala "Selamat tinggal dunia".

Tapi tak. Semuanya tak.
D, put yourself together. Please, just this time. Just one more time.



I'm not your charity case, don't pick me up for your own bigot motives and then put me down when you just can't do it anymore. Put on your running shoes and run a mile in mine. Please? But I guess that's too much to ask for now. I should be thankful that I've a place to crash, at least for now.

End of Year 1

One year ago today, I wouldn't have dream about continuing my degree. I just finished my practical training and was waiting for my diploma to end(oh, and that reminds me of something important)

Huge fight commenced somewhere around this time a year ago that breaks my heart but it has brought me peace now. Alhamdulillah. You know what's cool when you get something unexpected from your effort? It is just... indescribable. At first I was certain I wasn't belong here, but the longer I stay the more things seem fitting with me, and everything, which is... again, indescribable. I'm like in this small small world of its own, that amazes me more often than not. I love being here.

The people here is just amazing. You won't find this type of people in the real world (well, I guess, my kind of real world) and yeah, I envy them. I envy every single thing about them - their innocence, their faith, their intelligence. Every single thing. MashaAllah. It gave me a new hope to move forward, that I deserve to get what I want. InshaAllah.

Year 1 for me is indescribable in a good way.