I want to cover loads and loads of songs. Sad songs, so I can weep. I want the girl beside me to stop listening to her music so loud it could damage my earphones (that I lent her).
I want to eat mud pie without feeling any guilt what damage it'll do to my body. I want to go home. Home as in home with a family in it and not the current house I'm living. I want to be with my brothers. I want us to be toegther again, like a family. I want to have a huge argument with them so that at the end of the day we'll seek each other aplogies and be glad that we have each other. I want to hug my mom. I dont want to fall sick. I'm feeling sickly again and I'm tired of my body telling me that I need to let my breakfast+lunch+dinner out. It has been 3 days, and I'm tired. I'm tired of holding on. I want to burst into tears and have the world's ignorance. I want to help 'em people in Libya. I want world peace. I want you to stop bitching about your dysfunctional family because if you take that huge step to get to know your mom better, you'll see that she's a godsent. She has always been one to us. Stop being a fucking spoilt brat.I want you to be tough.I want them to start doing their work and stop procrastinating. DONT WATCH MOVIES YOU FUCKING TWAT. YOU STILL HAVE WORK TO DO. I WONT DO YOUR WORK THIS TIME NU-UH.I want to cry and I need a hug.
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Showing posts with label rant. Show all posts
Showing posts with label rant. Show all posts
February 22, 2011
October 20, 2010
Rant Series #4: Salah sendiri.
Semalam masa semua orang sibuk-sibuk balik KL (okay, dari isnin malam, mungkin) nak tengok si Yelyah belting out with her band (sobs! :(), aku sibuk study/practice (more towards practice).
Semalam masa semua orang sibuk-sibuk terpekik-pekik dekat Bkt Jalil, aku sibuk buat apa tah kat bilik.
Mood serious nak study start pukul 12 tengah malam. Konon saja nak kasi feel lebih study on 20102010. Pastu tidur pukul 4 pagi. Dari pukul 12 tu, rasanya dalam 10% je masuk.
Harini aku jawab test, punya tekan-tekan calculator, guna table apa bagai, yang paling tak boleh blah siap mintak masa lebih. Last-last dapat 9 je. 9 je out of 20. Bodoh piang aku nih!
Padan muka ang D, dok buat perangai lagu ni lagi, padan mukaaaaaa!
Nanti final kau dapat C, masakkk ar.
Semalam masa semua orang sibuk-sibuk terpekik-pekik dekat Bkt Jalil, aku sibuk buat apa tah kat bilik.
Mood serious nak study start pukul 12 tengah malam. Konon saja nak kasi feel lebih study on 20102010. Pastu tidur pukul 4 pagi. Dari pukul 12 tu, rasanya dalam 10% je masuk.
Harini aku jawab test, punya tekan-tekan calculator, guna table apa bagai, yang paling tak boleh blah siap mintak masa lebih. Last-last dapat 9 je. 9 je out of 20. Bodoh piang aku nih!
Padan muka ang D, dok buat perangai lagu ni lagi, padan mukaaaaaa!
Nanti final kau dapat C, masakkk ar.
August 20, 2010
Patut tidur sekarang, tapi ada quiz esok. Jadi kena stay up sekejap.
Pernah tak rasa tiba-tiba macam nak lari pergi satu tempat yang orang tak pernah kenal kita dan tak akan kisah pasal kita lepas kita tahu orang dah start tahu pasal kita. Tapi, dekat tempat yang kita nak jadi anonymous tu, kita nak juga ada komiti kecil yang faham kita, yang memang dibentuk khas untuk kita sahaja. Those people that gets you no matter who you want to be/what you feel.
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Aku tengah rasa macam tu sekarang.
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Dan, pernah tak rasa tiba-tiba macam nak cemburu dekat benda yang tak sepatutnya, benda yang patutnya, kita dah lama accept and move on dan memang patut cakap depan muka "The world doesn't revolve around you, bitch". Tak, ini bukan cemburu dalam konteks lovers. Just, jealous, in general. Macam hak kita dirampas, tapi sepatutnya memang patut di-share oleh semua.
Aku tak suka jadi sehijau ini. Bulan puasa mana boleh rasa macam ni. Hish.
July 28, 2010
Rant Series #3: Geekrant.
This post contain useless rants that I need to vent out. Read on only if you have some free time to spare.
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(i) I was once so used with Windows platform that I put up with all its antiques and its slowness. But now I can't. I can't even stand looking at this stupid stick thin font WinXP decided to use when I don't install the stupid, ughhhh hard to install plugins. WTF. I lived with Windows my whole life, and you give me bullpoop. Awesome.
(ii) Okay, since we're talking geek language, I'm thinking of taking ABAP this semester just because I think it'll lessen my 3rd year coursework. At first I was given three options for my major - Database, E-Bizznez, and KM, and today I got to know that I can only take up either E-bizz or KM. FML. Agak ugh disitu [/ugh]. So okay, I went to the timetable thingamajiggy and it shows 3 long hours of lecture and lab, back to back. Um, okay? -_-
(iii) Second day of semester has been hell. Too many subjects clashing with each other and I kinda hated myself for being lazyass for not doing the re-re-recheckings on the timetable that results in dropping my beloved (core) Econs. Sigh.
(iv) Which leads me to three core subjects during my 3rd year of which of course will be awesomely filled with MAJOR and FYPs (YAY/sarcasm). So I have to take one of my fave minor subject to date down. Boo!
(v) Echofon for Firefox memang sucks donkeyballs. Tak user friendly langsung (or maybe aku kena develop another twitter tool yang menepati cita rasa? Maybe.)
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But okay, it's only the second day. I hope it gets better because I really need rainbows for the next two weeks. Not poop, definitely not that.
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Ya Allah, permudahkan urusanku. Berikan yang terbaik untukku. Jika itu yang terbaik, permudahkan perjalanan urusanku. Berikan aku kekuatan sebanyak mungkin untuk mengharungi minggu add drop yang amat menakutkan ini. Let the right ones in, let the wrong ones go. Amin, amin, ya rabbal a'lamin.
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(i) I was once so used with Windows platform that I put up with all its antiques and its slowness. But now I can't. I can't even stand looking at this stupid stick thin font WinXP decided to use when I don't install the stupid, ughhhh hard to install plugins. WTF. I lived with Windows my whole life, and you give me bullpoop. Awesome.
(ii) Okay, since we're talking geek language, I'm thinking of taking ABAP this semester just because I think it'll lessen my 3rd year coursework. At first I was given three options for my major - Database, E-Bizznez, and KM, and today I got to know that I can only take up either E-bizz or KM. FML. Agak ugh disitu [/ugh]. So okay, I went to the timetable thingamajiggy and it shows 3 long hours of lecture and lab, back to back. Um, okay? -_-
(iii) Second day of semester has been hell. Too many subjects clashing with each other and I kinda hated myself for being lazyass for not doing the re-re-recheckings on the timetable that results in dropping my beloved (core) Econs. Sigh.
(iv) Which leads me to three core subjects during my 3rd year of which of course will be awesomely filled with MAJOR and FYPs (YAY/sarcasm). So I have to take one of my fave minor subject to date down. Boo!
(v) Echofon for Firefox memang sucks donkeyballs. Tak user friendly langsung (or maybe aku kena develop another twitter tool yang menepati cita rasa? Maybe.)
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But okay, it's only the second day. I hope it gets better because I really need rainbows for the next two weeks. Not poop, definitely not that.
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Ya Allah, permudahkan urusanku. Berikan yang terbaik untukku. Jika itu yang terbaik, permudahkan perjalanan urusanku. Berikan aku kekuatan sebanyak mungkin untuk mengharungi minggu add drop yang amat menakutkan ini. Let the right ones in, let the wrong ones go. Amin, amin, ya rabbal a'lamin.
May 19, 2010
Rant Series: Things that equivalent to stupidity
Sometimes I think I made this blog just to rant. Lol, I'm not that negative upfront but a girl gotta rant when she's gotta rant, yeah? (K, totally made that up - moving on!) SO:
- I don't get it how you can afford to have your own food stall and cannot afford to give out small change and have the cheek to ask your customer (RUDELY) to get his/her own small changes.
- How, insensitive and busy body can you get to your customer? When I don't want to answer your stupid irrelevant questions it just means this: I just don't wanna have any communication whatsoever with you. Thanks. (Really,because the food stall owner just ruined my mood and you there, without thinking have the cheek to ask me this "Mesti abang tu suruh tukar duit kan? Adik takde duit kecik lagi ke? Besarnye duit?") Dude, I do what I want with MY money, OK?
- And this Paki stall I swore to boycott not so long ago just proved me right. That they don't deserve my money AT ALL. Too bad there's small variations as to where I can get my food. The heck. Stupid immigrants. (They're not Pakistanis I presume, they look and talk like a Bangaldeshi - I'm pissed so, hope none of you all 'immigrants' offended - if any)
- I just couldn't wait to get my feet on my hometown dirt. Seriously, exams? Pfft.
May 15, 2010
Ugh.
It just came to me that, I'll be doing my 8-month internship on January 2011, and I knowwww there are at least 6 months left to go and live with whatever I'm doing right now, but I have to decide on which company I wish to do my internship at. I've done once, when I was taking my diploma and to be quite honest, I didn't feel this restless.
I am not one of the best students here, I am not in the DL, I am nobody here. Which scares me cause I have *might* actually decided on this particular big company, but I chickened out. My pointer just screams average and that is all. I'm actually quite amazed on the fact that *I*'ve gotten in this place on my own. That, I actually went through college and graduated with 4.0 but barely make it 3.5 here. I'm scared shitless!
The ONLY way I can think of right now is get myself a 3.74 pointer for this semester and I know I'm taking only 15 credit hour but the syllabuses aren't something you can kid around. They. are. maderfaker. hard. -______________-"
I hope whatever I'm doing right now, with every notes, every short-hands, every attendance and time I spent on the subjects are worth it. Pls pls pls pls, I need to be in that company! NEED.
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And, registration for the new semester has just opened today. I guess I'll be taking minor subjects and the hell I do not know which to choose! I've been to one of the minor class under corporate management (My program has the option to choose between Corporate Management or Financial Management jsyk), and it was really an eye-opener as to how little I know about business, and the worse part is, I cannot see I'm acing that class.
But I wanted to take up corp mgmt, and not financial related just cause I think I can do it better than the other. But yeah, dude I don't know cause I've been to one of the classes and I don't think I can, so I really don't know. I know I'm being such a whiny bitch right now but I seriously feel unsettled and need to get this out of my chest.
Clock is ticking fast and so many big decisions need to be made at the end of June. What. Why.
Ugh. Growing up IS hard.
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Everyone seems like a responsible young adult now, travelling back and forth visiting their parents, and getting hitched here and there. They are making me feel like I'm stuck in my highschool years. Tsk.
I am not one of the best students here, I am not in the DL, I am nobody here. Which scares me cause I have *might* actually decided on this particular big company, but I chickened out. My pointer just screams average and that is all. I'm actually quite amazed on the fact that *I*'ve gotten in this place on my own. That, I actually went through college and graduated with 4.0 but barely make it 3.5 here. I'm scared shitless!
The ONLY way I can think of right now is get myself a 3.74 pointer for this semester and I know I'm taking only 15 credit hour but the syllabuses aren't something you can kid around. They. are. maderfaker. hard. -______________-"
I hope whatever I'm doing right now, with every notes, every short-hands, every attendance and time I spent on the subjects are worth it. Pls pls pls pls, I need to be in that company! NEED.
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And, registration for the new semester has just opened today. I guess I'll be taking minor subjects and the hell I do not know which to choose! I've been to one of the minor class under corporate management (My program has the option to choose between Corporate Management or Financial Management jsyk), and it was really an eye-opener as to how little I know about business, and the worse part is, I cannot see I'm acing that class.
But I wanted to take up corp mgmt, and not financial related just cause I think I can do it better than the other. But yeah, dude I don't know cause I've been to one of the classes and I don't think I can, so I really don't know. I know I'm being such a whiny bitch right now but I seriously feel unsettled and need to get this out of my chest.
Clock is ticking fast and so many big decisions need to be made at the end of June. What. Why.
Ugh. Growing up IS hard.
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Everyone seems like a responsible young adult now, travelling back and forth visiting their parents, and getting hitched here and there. They are making me feel like I'm stuck in my highschool years. Tsk.
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