Untuk jadi seorang Dalila, peratusan anxious dan worry harus tinggi, paling minima pun dalam 99.9%.

Untuk jadi seorang Dalila, skill overanalyze perlu ditahap advance. Untuk masalah sekecil lubang jarum pun, harus dirisaukan. Mesti.

Entah kenapalah aku ni. Manusia memang tak reti bersyukur kan? Terutama aku. Aku.

Aku takut gila sebenarnya.

Banyak gila what ifs dalam kepala, naik serabut.

Macam, sekarang ni, entahlah. Bila aku fikir pasal semua benda, aku jadi down.

:(

Tak best lah macam ni.

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Tapi kan, kalau I'm not meant for this, kenapa aku dapat?

Kan?

Kan?

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Sebab Allah nak uji. Sebab Allah cakap, this is it babygirl, you can do this, it's gonna be tough but I know you can because I KNOW.

Kan?

Susah sangat nak keep being optimistic ni. Syaitan banyak sangat agaknya.

I need me some usrah group or something like that. Dah empty sangat. 

Hati

You have got to stop this mindless games.

It's not your time yet, kot?

Entahlah. Cukup cukup please? Penat lah nak sambung tampal tampal hati yang dah koyak banyak kali ni. Penat. :(

Funny little world.

Funny how life took a turn.
Alhamdulillah for that.

I'm in for a new adventure with life and to be honest, I am scared. I cannot believe I actually seek my way out and I'm not really sure if this is *it* but I got to get through it so that I know, yes?

I mean why the heck am I being /selected/ if I am not fit for it. Kan?
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Been having a lot of me time and a lot of things to ponder upon. Gosh, 2013 is really the year to be independent and shit. I foresee  a lot more breakdowns from me but hey that's normal, when you are down the only way is up *Sila simpan optimistik ini Dalila, jangan buat buat lupa*
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I am not implying that 2012 is shitty, after all I did wish the year would make me, me. I guess I gotta learn my flaws and what nots so I can bear with all the happiness coming my way this year, cewah!
Hahaha and look at me, a month too late to even write a proper pre-new year post but oh well.

I haven't been good with words lately. I cannot focus more than 5 minutes which is not good, but not bad either because it means I can multitask.
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I got SO many things to do, SO many things to be thankful of, and 2013 sjdbhsjagfdgahfsdas I'm gonna be an adult for reals.

So, just, be nice, and let me be...happy (or less depressing, that'd be nice too)